Dear Reader
Ignore the date, today is 17/2/06
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This site you are now reading was kept by me for 8 months as a means to explore and bring to the surface the various disparate voices in my head; part of the process called finding your voice. It started out as a place to put my avant garde poems, and after a while developed into a place for experimental prose. The other sites linked to this blog (click view my complete profile on your immediate right) house the other styles of writing. Scalljah is comedy, Desmond Swords is lyric poetry and As/Is is a collaborative blog I still post on and is where I honed my L=A=N=G=U=A=G=E poetry skills under the silent tutelage of the conveyer belt of Post Modern verse, Sheila E Murphy, who is a natural and very generous poet.
The Poetry Assassin site houses a long unfinished piece I started and now don't know what to do with.
I trained for 3 years at writing school in my home town of Ormskirk on the West coast of the UK, (BA Hons Writing Studies and Drama) before decamping to Dublin to chase the dream of becoming a poet, which seems to be what has happened, as all the separate strands of my imagination are now working as a whole and the voices have joined up as one. I am writing this on 17 Feburary 2006 from my office in Dublin, which is in reality a sweet shop internet cafe in the North inner city. The bulk of the writing below was written on the date above last year, in response to the TS Eliot lecture by the English writing Hungarian poet George Szirtes, who won the TS Eliot prize a year or so ago.
Todd Swift was one of his students on the one year MA Writing course George heads at the University of East Anglia somewhere near Norwich in the UK. Todd Swift is a poetry editor living in London striving for a sort of TS Eliot vibe of wanting to be more Anglo than Canadian; and he publicised himself as the leading Canadian poet of his generation, until I wrote this and spoke elsewhere of Derek Hines, who is a truly inspiring Canadian poet much more worthy of the title Swift claimed. He's now fixed the mistake and only claims to be the leading Canadian poet of his generation (those poets born since 1960).
So the piece below was a satirical rant to prick the pomposity I detected in Swift and just another piece of writing on my journey to self confirmation as a poet, in the Heaney sense. Heaney reckons you exist and survive as a poet in your own esteem and not because such a person or people say you are, print your work, or allow you access to public subsidies.
If you want to read the piece below feel free, but it's really a bit of an in joke and the references may bewilder if you are unfamiliar with UK contemporary culture; plus the style is an avant garde like prose and not to everyone's taste. However I do write in all genres of poetry and prose, which is why it's taken a few years for the voice to come through; as if you want to be a poet the first thing you realise is the factionalism and moaning that goes on from all sides and camps, with most of the talk revolving around the question of what is a real poet/poetry? The only point of agreement seems to be that there are lots of people calling themselves poets but only very few actually are. It is a bit like being at school, but it's the adults playing childrens games of name calling and with the bullying being a lot more subtle and pyschologically done through the written word.
I didn't know if my dream of wanting to be a poet was me fooling myself or if the spark of intuition that set it off was based in something real, so I decided to cover my backside by learning to write in all poetical forms, from strict meter to cutting edge avant garde and slam; and to centre my practice in memorisation, just like the Irish Fili, or "bards" who were in existence for about 2000 years up until Cromwell came to Ireland at the start of 17C and this ancient tradition collapsed. My parents are Irish and I instinctively felt more affinity with this tradition than that of England, and since coming to Ireland have discovered a touchstone text from the middle of the Irish tradition in the 7C which lays out in very simple terms exactly what the poetic art is and how it works.
This text effectively negates the need to engage in the what is a real poet/poetry debate and is the reason for my confidence and belief in my own voice. Most poets stick to one or two forms, but usually free verse, and read from the page. Few can write in metrical form such as a sonnet, and many call something a sonnett when it isn't, just because it's got ten or so syllables in the line. This is a sonnet, and I wrote it last year.
ORMSKIRK
I grew up in the womb of West Lancs, where
skinheads dwelt in bushes by train tracks and
cut childrens' heads off if ever they dared
go under the tunnel after the last
light had sunk signalling it was time to
come home. Playtime finished at sunset when
I was seven, and in the darkness spooks
ghosts, ghouls or Father Christmas could descend
into the night depending on what time
of year it was. Gavin Hesketh once said
he had seen Santa ploughing through the sky
with Prancer and Rudolph making his way
to Nigel McLoughlin's on Ravenscroft
and I believed him, though Dad said he made
it up and what had really flown across
the roof of their house was his mum on her
broomstick. That year Gavin got a Chopper
and we started playing Top Trumps together
in the back of Dad's broken down car
which he parked in the garage. This was where
I would listen to the match from Fortress
Anfield, soaking up the statistics like
sapling roots drawing strength from the depths
of a spring laden earth.
So after five years hard mental work the dream has become real and I have managed to construct a reality of the mind whereby I firmly believe in my calling, much in the vein of Pierre Currie's quote
"You have to make your life a dream for your dreams to become reality"
So please join me at the Irish Poetry blog by clicking the link above, (Latest topic is a Paul Durcan Lecture I attended on 15/2/06 where the full cadre of Irish greats were in attendance from Famous Seamus the Mossbawn Magus to Kevin the Amatuer Drunk) but also feel free to read the text below, written last November.
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New breaking news of undaring lingo from the site of Anglo wannabee Todd, where he bum licks George Szirtes and slags off Stephen Fry, the immensely intelligent and plummy voiced talented global artist.
Wots goin' on?
Well, I don't know, but I do know that after listening to Fry waffling a langugae chocca full of metrically technical terms striking with deeply felt pertinance, an awareness within the mind I percieve as being at play behind jolly hockeysticks registers, suggestive of fag bashings and public school-centric elites of poesie pontificaters imbued as one in commune with a god given right bestowed upon intellects sharpened on Etonian playing fields, where rugger and buggery are two highly normal mechanisms through which power is naturally manifesting itself to the heavy hitters of a future age, as yet not upon us, but soon to be so UK side.
Holding this mix of thought as a dilineating concentric circular boundary of outer ripples bordering the concentration ring into which I step, all philisophical exploration becomes defunct as a sublime fleeting energy jolts me to create an image of generic redundant public passenger drivers vaguely resembling the fictional character of "Blakey" from the 60's comedy smash sitcom "On the Buses"; and appearing instantly juxtaposed against the backdrop of kaleadescopically swinging heydays painting in an electronic canvas,
"Terry" from "The Likely Lads" shape tweens through time and space, alternating with Blakey in a newly created constantly morphing symbol of cultural identity.
I move beyond the glow of footlights and stride onstage, brought into a conceptual reality by use of an a priori software pulling "secret levers" in the Szitean "universe" where the Scot Don "poet man" Patterson is overdue a critical mauling and the sound patterns I first wrote of over at the ablemuse site where Mark Granier hones his blade of intellect come flooding back to affirm my faith that in the Amergin attributed deposit I will uncover a truth to shut up the gabbling rabble of Swiftean like "talentless popinjays" who concern themselves with fundamentals of poetry, desribed in Amergin as "binding principles of good poetic construction."
And fans of Don, George and "any number of other truly brilliant, talented, hard-working, formalist poets now writing and publishing in Great Britain," will be silenced when writing's whole methodology, particularly within spectrums of critical humanism, changes exponentially in ever shortening amounts of time; so much so that obscure pearls of guff and wisdom, from ancient scribblers to avant-garde show offs will be rustled up from an absence patrolled by light moving in binary coded optical data bits through a controlling movement of fingertips tickling keyboards.
With a seriously stern and straight faced approach to potency I have perceived via the medium of reality TV shows where Gordon Ramsey gives out dressing downs to wanabee carrot choppers dishing up the dips for a restaurant full of Jamie Oliver watchers and readers wanting to be a part of the latest infomercial for the next nights episode, or larger still, pitching ambition to a curve of instant poesie at buckle, they will feast their eyes and ears at a gozzy gawp gawk fest to be recorded on Tuesday at the new pizza restaurant venue adjacent to Eamon Dorans, Temple Bar, Dublin 1; so keep watching this space readers and lovers of the truth Szirtes boy would wet his knickers over where he to know it fully.
